I Wanna Go Back
Hey, y’all. The last couple of days have been very mentally draining for me. As you grow up and get older, you experience heartbreak and harder times. That’s just life. Something I’ve noticed though, that I’m proud of, is that I’ve maintained my child-like innocence and mindset. Meaning that I love almost everyone I meet and go into every relationship with pure intentions and a positive mindset, always ready to be a good friend and sister in whatever way I can. However, as you can imagine, this leads to a lot of heartbreak in your day to day life. In life, especially as an adult, people hurt you. Loved ones let you down, friends betray you, boys break your heart, etc. I often find myself longing for the connection that us humans have when we’re children. Ya know, the connection where it doesn’t matter what gender you are, what you look like, what your interests are, etc. Everyone is a friend. Everyone loves everyone. Everyone is there for everyone. No questions asked- no selfish desires.
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I was driving with my friend the other day and I looked out the window when I was waiting at a red light. I saw a little girl, around 4 years old, running through the sprinklers. She was just giggling and smiling while running through the water in her clothes, no cares in the world. I found myself grinning with joy when I noticed this little girl. She was just having a good time and not sweating the big stuff. I wish it was that easy nowadays, for me too. I wish we all just had that pure joy and innocence about us that children do. Life would be so much sweeter if we just viewed it through their eyes, the way we did when we were little. These feelings and this longing for a simpler time were enhanced when I was on another drive a couple days later and this song came on the radio. The song “I Wanna Go Back” by David Dunn came on the Christian radio station that I listen to religiously (get it, haha?). I have heard this song a hundred times before, and have always loved it, but it really hit home after how I’ve been feeling lately and after that moment watching the sweet girl in the sprinklers. (I strongly suggest you listen to this song. It perfectly encapsulates the feeling of child-like faith and how I especially long for a time when life and love and faith were simpler.) While it’s impossible to avoid growing up and dealing with the trials and tribulations of this life, I pray that I, along with all of you, can retrain our hearts and souls to be more Christ-like in every way possible. I hope you view life the way a child does, and laugh your way through life while taking a break to run through the sprinklers. I pray that you love others and do your best to be a good friend and sister, and love with a child-like innocence. The world needs more people driven by Christ’s love and less of the people claiming the name then living for themselves. Boy, I wanna go back. Love God, love people.
XOXO,
Tay
“Truly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it.” Luke 18:17