Friendly Reminder to Pursue God

This week has been C-R-A-Z-Y, y’all! Nothing particularly bad has happened, but it’s one of those weeks where my days are all jumbled, I can’t tell if the week is dragging or flying by, and oh yeah, I totally just left that load of laundry in the washer for a whole day. Oops. 

While nothing detrimentally bad has happened to me, there is still that feeling of unease. That feeling of “I don’t feel right, but why?” I know exactly why. And I bet you all do too. 

I haven’t read my Bible once this week. Haven’t prayed in about 3 days, either. 

Why? I’ve been distracted- off balance, even. While I, along with everyone I know, loves to ask “Why, God”, and blame him for our unfortunate days, weeks and circumstances. I think it’s important to note that God didn’t “do anything” wrong here. He didn’t move. He didn’t go anywhere. I did. I put laundry, cleaning, cooking, working and watching shows like “Naked and Afraid” and “Welcome to Plathville” above God this week. Am I proud of it?? HECK NO. Am I aware that I’m the little lamb that strayed? Absolutely. Ashamed of it, too. 

Times like this make me feel pretty lonely, vulnerable and helpless. And that’s just after ONE week of not having my head where it’s been for 21 years. Thinking about this and calling myself out made me also take another huge step back and think,”Wait… is this how non-believers feel ALL THE TIME??? Why would anyone do that to themselves? The answer is that they simply don’t value the gift that God is, and not always intentionally. We get caught up in the worldly things that don’t matter and forget that God calls us to be His. 

We just need to reach out and pursue Him. We are meant to. 

1 Chronicles 16:11 says, “Seek the Lord and his strength, seek his face continually.”

The feelings I’ve experienced: loneliness, guilt, frustration and emptiness are all consequences of my actions, or actually my lack-of the right actions. I know others feel them too, sometimes constantly… maybe even you do, right now. Let go, let God. 

Return to Him, love Him, pursue Him.

XOXO, 

Tay